After
all
that went into getting there, graduation itself was not even anti-climatic. It
just was. Rachel’s family actually made a big deal out of it. And it was the
rare chance for the clique to actually give her something that she needed. None
of them were using their tickets for graduation for a variety of reasons, but
it was still kind of them to hand them over to Rachel. Her grandparents flew up
from Florida to be there and sat proudly in between Rachel’s divorced parents.
Rachel had even been able to procure tickets for her folks’ new significant
others. It was an uneasy truce, but the typical family squabbling that almost
always ruined every family event that required they be in close proximity to
one another were put aside during the ceremony.
The
truce
even lasted all the way through the post-graduation lunch they all enjoyed.
Since Rachel’s mother had picked the restaurant the group dined at, her father
thought it only fair that he got to pick up the check. The battle over who got
to drop the small piece of plastic onto the black, plastic tray made Rachel
wish that she too could just become small enough to slip discretely into the
waiter’s hand.
She
had
been disappointed that she didn’t get to introduce her extended family to the
new one she had spent much of the last four years with. Deep down she was
pleased that Rick could not be there. It wasn’t enough for Rachel to succeed;
part of her relished seeing others – namely Rick – fail, as well. Rachel had
Sandy’s tickets, too. Rather than face the fight over which of his parents to
give the tickets to, Sandy had let Rick convince him that would be the ideal
day to set off on their cross-country motorcycle trip.
Mike
had
his tickets messengered over by his publisher. Although his folks were coming
down from Boston and had thrown a cocktail reception at the Harvard Club, Mike
planned on being anywhere but there. He was relishing taking advantage of every
perk of his contract that he could. He had considered having the publisher send
someone to the snobbish event in his stead, but he remembered that he liked his
burgeoning relationship with the people who were paying him. Why should
somebody from the mail room be subjected to his family? It was easier and a far
better way to spend the day, writing and not answering the phone.
Ghia
had
every intention of attending graduation. After the Ali debacle, as she thought
of it in her head, she had come back to the dorm with her tail between her
legs. She hadn’t meant it to be that way. She was fortunate enough to be able
to get a single room despite the fact that she had turned down school housing
when she paid that final year’s tuition. Someone must have heard about what
happened to her and taken pity. She didn’t want the pity, but she needed the
room, she needed the normalcy of one last year of having simple living. She
needed a clean and safe laundry room in the basement with a stack of trashy
romance novels. She needed the dining hall with the endless supply of sugary
cereal, soda and the hubbub of collegiate chat.
Ghia
had
seen all too clearly in just a scant few months of how hard and ugly life could
be outside of college. She was giving serious consideration to Graduate school.
She knew that she wanted that insulated cocoon of being a student. The real world
was scary and filled with people who could turn angry and mean over the
simplest of things, like accidentally breaking your husband’s favorite pint
glass when you were doing the dishes.
Then
her
father had his heart attack and everything changed with that one phone call:
Her mother, babbling incoherently in a mixture of Korean, English and heart
wrenching sobs. Ghia got a lot of studying done sitting in hospital waiting
rooms. She got to see first hand how medical science was a guessing game, how
nothing prepared you for sickness and for death. She wished that she was still
eight years old when her father was the strongest, smartest man she knew. The
hardest part, having gotten close to quite a number of men in the last four
years at school, was that she still thought that way about her father.
Especially compared to him, the men she opened her heart and her legs to were
little more than boys.
Now,
her
father was little more than a thin shadow in bed. Back and forth between
hospital beds and the one made up on the ground floor of their house. Her
mother becoming larger and stronger as her father diminished. Ghia learned more
in those months about what it meant to be a woman than any of the books she had
read at school and in all the feminist studies classes that she had taken over
the last few years.
The
night
before graduation, a ceremony her father wanted to attend, a ceremony her
mother needed to attend – Ghia was not only the first in the family to go to
college, she was graduating with honors – her father took a turn for the worse.
The doctors were puzzled; not at all what any family member wants to hear in an
intensive care unit. He had completely ceased to speak English and called out
for Old World procedures that the physicians could not comply with.
Ghia’s
tickets to graduation were left in an envelope on her mother’s dresser at home.
The envelope was never opened and it sat there for a long while even after
graduation.
Rick
cajoled and pleaded and then finally convinced Sandy that they should set off
on the motorcycles at the precise moment that the graduation ceremony in
Washington Square Park was to commence. Rick wasn’t invited as he had failed to
graduate. Sandy had been asked by the Business School to give a speech as part
of the ceremony. When no one in the department could understand the outline he
was asked to provide and delivered, Sandy finally acquiesced to Rick’s demands.
Rick
had
not even informed his parents that he hadn’t graduated or that he was heading
out on a motorcycle from Sandy’s New Jersey home with a destination of Venice,
California and the home of their former roommate Jinky. Jinky had invited them
in passing. No one in their right mind would have taken the invite as gospel,
but then again, neither Rick nor Sandy was in their right mind.
So,
at
precisely one o’clock in the afternoon on that Thursday in June, with just one
change of clothes, the saddle bags on their bikes were filled with tools that
Sandy had said were far more important than clean underwear, they hit the road.
The gas tanks were full. The brilliant June sun reflected off their black
leather motorcycle jackets and helmets.
The
thunderstorm hit them, and hit them hard, less than eighty miles into their
journey on the Jersey turnpike. Rick was whooping it up, manic in his glee to
be free. He thought of the rain as cleansing and a good omen. Sandy, the wiser
and more experienced biker of the pair, knew the rain – the first storm in some
time – would make the roads treacherous and the other drivers far more dangerous.
When
he
spied the train trestle, he signaled Rick to pull over. They got off the
Thruway and hunkered down, like two soaked-to-the-skin trolls, to wait out the
storm which had no appearances of letting up anytime soon. For awhile, they
just sat with their helmets under their asses and watched the teaming rain
slough down from above.
Rick
howled
at the sky. Sandy turned to him. “You wanna go back?” said Sandy.
“I’d
rather
marry Rachel and have her put my balls up on her mantel,” said Rick, grabbing
his crotch to emphasize his point.
“At
least
they’d be safe there,” said Sandy, smiling.
“I
don’t
care about safe,” said Rick, sounding like he actually meant the fool hardy
statement.
“Obviously,”
said Sandy, “you would have kept on riding in this, wouldn’t you?”
Rick
looks
out at the pouring rain and the speeding cars and semi trucks sending dirty
water cascading over them. “Hell yeah!” said Rick.
Sandy
shook
his head. He sat in silence for awhile, occasionally glancing over at the
obviously antsy Rick.
After
about
twenty minutes of nonstop, torrential downpour, Rick got up off his helmet and
wandered over to the edge of the overhang and stuck his hand out. His palm was
quickly filled with rain water, a fact he was oblivious to.
“Looks
like
it’s letting up,” said Rick.
Sandy
just
shook his head. “Sit down and shut up,” said Sandy.
Rick
looked
out at the storm and then turned back and slowly trudged back to where Sandy
was seated, safe and dry.
“C’mon,”
whined Rick, “a little rain won’t hurt us.”
“Yeah,”
said Sandy, “but one of these trucks might kill us.”
Rick
made a
raspberry sound. “Then go,” said Sandy. Rick looked out at the speeding trucks
and then sat back down on his helmet next to Sandy. Sandy smiled and then
closed his eyes. To him, patience really was a virtue.
They
listened to the rain pound them from above for a good ten minutes without
saying another word.
“So,”
said
Sandy, without opening his eyes. Rick actually thought for a moment that his
friend had fallen asleep. “What are you gonna do when we get back to New York?”
“When
we
get back?” said Rick.
“Yeah,”
said Sandy, “after this is done.”
“Why
are
you thinking about what happens after?” said Rick, “We just started. I mean
just barely.”
Sandy
opens
his eyes for a moment, looks at Rick, drenched in his black jeans and leather
jacket and then closes his eyes again.
After
a few
minutes more with nothing but the sounds of traffic and rain, Rick turns back
to Sandy. “Well,” said Rick, “what are you doing after this? Wall Street, huh?”
“That’s
what everyone thinks,” said Sandy without even opening his eyes.
“Well,”
said Rick, studying his friend’s face, “are they right?”
“Maybe,”
said Sandy.
“Maybe?”
said Rick.
Sandy
nods.
“What,
you
got a different plan?” said Rick.
Sandy
opens
his eyes and catches Rick staring at him, trying to read something that just
might not be there.
“I’m
thinking I just might raise falcons,” said Sandy. Then he closed his eyes and
listened to the rain.
Rick
starts
to open his mouth and then realizes he has no idea what to say. He closes his
mouth and leans back on his damp helmet and listened to the rain.
Sandy
opens
an eye and glances at Rick. He smiles.
“Sounds
like it’s starting to let up a little,” said Sandy.
“Good,” said Rick.